Fitness and Nutrition Update

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I haven’t made one of these in a while and I’ve got a few reasons why not:

  1. I struggle to cook here at my dad’s place because I can’t meal prep here (no fridge space)
  2. I’ve been looking for alternative solutions to weight loss (and found one) because I hated tracking my foods

So here’s the update: Between stress, prayer (to take my appetite away), “skinny tea”, beach body, and wearing a waist trainer every other day, I just don’t eat much anymore. I probably eat once or twice in a day and only 1 of those meals will be “large”. I mostly drink smoothies (superfood powder mixed with a bolthouse premade smoothie), coffee, and water during the day. When I become the least bit anxious, I completely lose my appetite and I don’t eat anything except fruit sometimes.

Now, I know this sounds unhealthy. Okay, it is unhealthy. However, it’s working in my favor. I needed to hit the reset button on my appetite so I could get a grip on my dietary choices. It’s so much easier now for me to chose to eat nutritious foods because I’m not constantly starving and willing to eat anything. And when I do eat unhealthy, I don’t each much of it. So far, I’ve lost 7lbs and I know I’ll lose more if I keep this up. When I do eat, it’s usually at least 1/2 vegetables.

So that’s that. Hopefully, as I get myself together, I’ll get a better grip on this. But for now, it’s working very well for me.

I Got PLAYED

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I went from being afraid to tell my close friends and family about my dating woes to announcing to the world that I got played like a brand new PS2 in the early 2000’s. It’s a part of that whole thing I said about being more transparent and whatnot.

In the spirit of (vengeance and) transparency, I’m just gonna let it all out. Continue reading “I Got PLAYED”

The Moment I’ve Been Waiting For!

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Remember that post I wrote a long time ago about how I wanted to be like Iron Man, Dr. Strange, and Bruce Banner at the beginning of Infinity War? No? Me either. I was going to link it in this post, but I don’t even remember the title. Anyway, look at this video:

When the sound of an alien ship roared and sent gusts of wind topping everything over, most people in the city did exactly what anyone else would do. Get the F outta the way! Yet, these 3 men walked toward it, curious and prepared for a fight. Even after coming face-to-face with their new foe, who could’ve been much stronger than they could handle, the heroes took a fighting stance and walked straight towards the danger. Why is that? Because they weren’t afraid of a fight. Actually, they always anticipated their enemies attack. Dr. Strange didn’t assume that because he wasn’t currently under attack that an enemy wasn’t on the way. Iron Man didn’t put his suit on and say “gosh I sure hope my armor doesn’t fail and I lose this fight.” And Banner, who couldn’t even transform into the Hulk, refused to stay out of the fight and later returned in a suit of armor. For the past 2 years now, I’ve been waiting for that moment. Not the moment where I’m faced with an enemy, but when I fearlessly run towards what scares me instead of away. Continue reading “The Moment I’ve Been Waiting For!”

Preparing for Healing

Right now, I’m in a grey area- a blank space in my life. It’s been like some sort of interlude. Personally, I never understood the point of interludes in movies, TV shows, or even music. I’m not a woman who enjoys suspense, I like to just get straight to the point so I can see how things end. (And whether the ending is in my favor/to my liking.) That’s an entirely different post that I’ll be writing later today though.

On Monday of this week, I got smacked across the face like an unprepared MMA fighter. My opponent: Anxiety. I was suddenly stormed by a myriad of thoughts about things I probably did wrong or ways that I’m not enough in my social, academic, work, or romantic life. I’ve spent the past 4 years now only taking paths that I felt sure that I had control over the outcomes on and I’ve been punched harder and harder, repeatedly since then. Every time something didn’t work out the way I thought they would, I’d face a depression like none other. It felt like my entire world was ending. Why? Because I’d be reminded that not only do I not have control, but I missed out on the opportunity to pursue a passion or fully enjoy a moment because I was hyper-focused on the end.

Continue reading “Preparing for Healing”

Food Diary #4 |Fitness & Nutrition

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So, I’ve realized I definitely can’t do these weekly. I think once or twice a week will be my routine for the food diary posts.

Anyway, my food-life has been very interesting lately! Let me start with this past Sunday. I weighed myself and was down 3 pounds! I was honestly shocked because I had a couple of days where I slipped up and went over on the calories. It’s very likely that the reason I still lost weight was that I exercised and burned approximately 270kcal Monday through Friday. I think I said this in a previous post, but I do not factor exercise into my calorie consumption right now for a few reasons. One, is that I don’t believe I exercise enough to eat more calories. Another reason is that I want to focus on studying my eating habits and learning what 1200 to 1500 calories a day looks like. Continue reading “Food Diary #4 |Fitness & Nutrition”

Food Diary #3 | Fitness & Nutrition

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Alrighty. So today I didn’t do that well, BUT I do have good things to say about how today went.

  1. Taking pictures of my food and logging it has made me more aware of when I eat, even after I’ve eaten. In the past, I didn’t realize how much I was mindlessly eating. Not only was I not noticing what I was eating or how much, but I would almost “forget” that I ate anything within a couple of hours when I’d be snacking again. Kinda like that time Patrick from Spongebob got upset because he didn’t remember eating his chocolate bar. giphy-3
  2. Protein really does make me feel full longer. I always thought that was some nutritionist mumbo-jumbo, but it’s true! It’s been a lot easier not to snack when I’m getting a good amount of protein with each meal! That being said- I do need to cut my protein consumption just a bit because it’s adding excess to my calorie count.

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Food Diary #2 |Fitness & Nutrition

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I think I did a pretty good job today. Better than yesterday. After I wrote that post, I got some pretty bad news and I coped by binging on 2 pop-tarts and a handful of Sun Puffs. I’m grateful that that’s ALL I ate. I did force myself to sorrowfully log it into MyFitnessPal too… so hopefully there will be no more of that!

Today I didn’t exercise at all. Partially because of the weather and partially because I was honestly just depressed. I also skipped breakfast for the same reason.

My first meal was around 2PM. Continue reading “Food Diary #2 |Fitness & Nutrition”

Food Diary Day 1 | Fitness & Nutrition

FOODWoohoo! My first “food diary” entry here. I’ve actually never shared my eating habits with anyone… for many reasons.

So, for breakfast (around 10:30 – 11:00AM), I had a syntha-6 protein shake (mixed with water). It was the delicious, yet somehow low in sugar, Coldstone version. I told myself, “this will be your sweet treat for the day, so no other sweets!” It tasted great too. I have very… non-sensitive taste buds, so mildly sweet was enough. Continue reading “Food Diary Day 1 | Fitness & Nutrition”

Cutting Out A Bad Habit | Fitness & Nutrition

I really hate to admit it, but I snack way too often. It’s like a hobby to me and it soothes literally any emotion. Pissed off? Oreo cookies. Depressed? Hershey’s Pie. Feeling in love (with Andy Samberg’s character on B99)? Toaster strudel. I mean, I can tell you a snack for any occasion.

Simultaneously, I’ve been searching high and low for the cause of my recent weight gain. I went from 180 to 215+ in a matter of months and watching My 600lb life on Hulu is making me panic, which makes me want more snacks! Continue reading “Cutting Out A Bad Habit | Fitness & Nutrition”