Wow, January went by incredibly slow. 😅 Despite that I didn’t really start class until the second week, and there was snow that caused me to have nearly a week off, January seemed to drag on by. February doesn’t seem like it’s going to go that way though. I’ve begun to really buckle down at work and take it seriously. Meanwhile, I’ve changed my perspective and attitude towards my classes and things are going great. My walk with God is still mysterious, rewarding, and so exciting and I am generally looking forward to the future. My never ending quest for inner happiness is equally as mysterious and rewarding I think. I’m really figuring myself out these days and finding new shortcomings.
I’ve taken a step back from my social media accounts and I’ve also changed some personal “beliefs” I had. One in particular was the nail craze and my thoughts towards makeup. I’ve actually decided to let long nails go. I’m a lady who was meant to have short nails I think. Plus, long nails come with too much baggage! I’ve been taking much better care of my skin, but I’ve also decided to wear neutral makeup just a little more often.
As far as Japanese goes… well… it goes in the “dissapointed” bucket along with working out and dieting. I’ve hardly kept up with my 50 words per week and its unacceptable. It seems like for every bit of myself that I clean up, another little bit unravels. I have not kept up with my reading goals and my time management has been ridiculous. I’m wondering what I need to do to get myself on track and the main thought that comes to my mind is that I should probably start spending more time at school, in the library. And speaking of school, questions of my career have come and gone too. A part of me has been trying to come to grips with the fact that I may not actually work in this field that study. Another part of me doesn’t care, as long as I satisfy what it really is that I am looking to accomplish in this life. Money and a job are simply tools I plan to use to build something much greater. The job could be almost anything. Plus my beliefs about what I think of as “boundless” success have me feeling quite secure.
Honestly though, I am sort of hoping that February zooms by. I just want to hurry up and enter my senior year of uni!
Let’s go February!!