I Finally Admitted the Truth

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“So what is it that you want to do?” That’s the biggest question of 2019 for graduating seniors, isn’t it?

I started this blog 2 years ago, almost 3? My intention was to write my thoughts, plans, and activities leading up to my big move. It seemed like it was so far away and it has felt like it has taken forever, but now… I’m here.

One of my student’s parents asked me about my future plans on his way out of the door. Like many other people, he seems to recognize a high degree of potential within me that I often can not see. Initially, I started to respond with my plans for college and jobs that I’ll apply for… but then I stopped myself. 

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“Honestly, I thought I knew exactly what I wanted to do, but now I don’t know.” I told him. I gave it a few more seconds of thought, “I don’t know exactly what I’m going to do for money, but my plan is to enjoy my life and raise a family. I don’t want to work 40+ hours a week and never get to connect with my family on a deeper level.”

“Wow”, he said. “That’s a really good answer.”

I hadn’t actually admitted it out loud before. I mean, when people ask about your future plans, they mean “what are you going to do to make a living” because that’s what society is set up for. You live to make money so that you can continue to live and make money. We’re conditioned to live out our lives on a hamster wheel. We make very few decisions for the sake of happiness and bettering our communities. We can’t afford to. It’s the fact that I continuously make attempts at jumping off the hamster wheel that lands me in trouble. It’s my desire to follow my heart that makes it hard for me to connect with people.

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As he walked out of the room, I felt a sense of relief. I know what I want to do with my life. How I get there isn’t the most important part, since any path I take will likely lead me there. I just have to make sure that I don’t lose sight of what it is that I’m working so hard for.

 

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