Food Diary #4 |Fitness & Nutrition

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So, I’ve realized I definitely can’t do these weekly. I think once or twice a week will be my routine for the food diary posts.

Anyway, my food-life has been very interesting lately! Let me start with this past Sunday. I weighed myself and was down 3 pounds! I was honestly shocked because I had a couple of days where I slipped up and went over on the calories. It’s very likely that the reason I still lost weight was that I exercised and burned approximately 270kcal Monday through Friday. I think I said this in a previous post, but I do not factor exercise into my calorie consumption right now for a few reasons. One, is that I don’t believe I exercise enough to eat more calories. Another reason is that I want to focus on studying my eating habits and learning what 1200 to 1500 calories a day looks like. Continue reading “Food Diary #4 |Fitness & Nutrition”

Food Diary #3 | Fitness & Nutrition

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Alrighty. So today I didn’t do that well, BUT I do have good things to say about how today went.

  1. Taking pictures of my food and logging it has made me more aware of when I eat, even after I’ve eaten. In the past, I didn’t realize how much I was mindlessly eating. Not only was I not noticing what I was eating or how much, but I would almost “forget” that I ate anything within a couple of hours when I’d be snacking again. Kinda like that time Patrick from Spongebob got upset because he didn’t remember eating his chocolate bar. giphy-3
  2. Protein really does make me feel full longer. I always thought that was some nutritionist mumbo-jumbo, but it’s true! It’s been a lot easier not to snack when I’m getting a good amount of protein with each meal! That being said- I do need to cut my protein consumption just a bit because it’s adding excess to my calorie count.

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Food Diary #2 |Fitness & Nutrition

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I think I did a pretty good job today. Better than yesterday. After I wrote that post, I got some pretty bad news and I coped by binging on 2 pop-tarts and a handful of Sun Puffs. I’m grateful that that’s ALL I ate. I did force myself to sorrowfully log it into MyFitnessPal too… so hopefully there will be no more of that!

Today I didn’t exercise at all. Partially because of the weather and partially because I was honestly just depressed. I also skipped breakfast for the same reason.

My first meal was around 2PM. Continue reading “Food Diary #2 |Fitness & Nutrition”

Food Diary Day 1 | Fitness & Nutrition

FOODWoohoo! My first “food diary” entry here. I’ve actually never shared my eating habits with anyone… for many reasons.

So, for breakfast (around 10:30 – 11:00AM), I had a syntha-6 protein shake (mixed with water). It was the delicious, yet somehow low in sugar, Coldstone version. I told myself, “this will be your sweet treat for the day, so no other sweets!” It tasted great too. I have very… non-sensitive taste buds, so mildly sweet was enough. Continue reading “Food Diary Day 1 | Fitness & Nutrition”

Cutting Out A Bad Habit | Fitness & Nutrition

I really hate to admit it, but I snack way too often. It’s like a hobby to me and it soothes literally any emotion. Pissed off? Oreo cookies. Depressed? Hershey’s Pie. Feeling in love (with Andy Samberg’s character on B99)? Toaster strudel. I mean, I can tell you a snack for any occasion.

Simultaneously, I’ve been searching high and low for the cause of my recent weight gain. I went from 180 to 215+ in a matter of months and watching My 600lb life on Hulu is making me panic, which makes me want more snacks! Continue reading “Cutting Out A Bad Habit | Fitness & Nutrition”

Confessions of A Workaholic

giphy-5Between the pandemic and my own anxiety, I’ve been in my feelings. Even though I’m already a hermit, I feel more alone now than ever before. It has forced me to think about my life and who I’ve become. About 3 years ago, I realized that the gratification I felt after working hard on things like projects and assignments was the feeling I was missing in my personal relationships with people. It’s likely that I was expecting constant gratification from others in my life because I never felt like I could get it from my mom. The feeling I’d have after busting my chops on a project, seeing my work, and even having my work recognized by others- it made me feel whole. So that what I focused all of my energy on.

As time went on, relationships with people were placed on the back-burner. People disappointed me. They could never be exactly who I (felt I) needed, when I needed them to be. I could never be who they needed me to be. I couldn’t trust Continue reading “Confessions of A Workaholic”

Is This the Worst-Case Scenario | Life Update

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From August of 2016 until August of 2019 I had a solid plan. I had a vision. I knew where I wanted to be and I was excited to find out what was drawing my heart there. I devoted myself to my goal as much as I knew how to. I told everyone that I was going to do it and the final months leading up to it, I started to prepare and brace myself.

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Then, August of 2019 came to an end and took my dream with it. It was like watching someone take your most prized possession and tossing it into a grinding garbage disposal. I cried. I grieved. I isolated myself from everyone. I prayed. Everyone told me that I needed to just face what was in front of me; some even suggesting that my dream was never meant to come true in the first place. My heart was shattered into pieces and I didn’t trust bringing it to anyone for revival- not even God. Continue reading “Is This the Worst-Case Scenario | Life Update”