I would be on week 5 right now, but I had to skip a week. Since I started running, I have been much more fatigued than ever before. I wasn’t sure if it was a diet-related problem or a sleep issue, but I had been having problems with migraines and staying awake while studying. So, I analysed my sleeping habits as well as my diet and I made some changes. Instead of waking up 1 hour before my run, which I was doing because I wanted to believe that I could force myself to get up and spend 1 hour doing something like journaling, I wake up at the time that I need to go running and immediately get dressed and leave. I’ve also noticed some insomnia since I’ve been paying attention to my habits. The insomnia is due to anxiety that I have not completed enough to go to sleep- which will lead to my failure. On school days, I only wake up 1 hour before class and no more. Sleeping away from my phone has helped and I am highly considering purchasing a kindle instead, so that I can read until I fall asleep. Meditation helps somewhat with falling asleep, but it actually seems to cause nightmares that are flashbacks of traumatic events. I’ve started eating mixed-green salads several times per week, along with more sauteed vegetables, and less bread. I also don’t eat past 7pm. This has made me feel a bit better as well.
The last run that I did was a little tough, but I realized my form was the cause. I was intentionally widening my stride because I recognize that I have a short stride and I thought it was a problem. The increase in running periods hasn’t been that bad though, I just have to remember to keep my posture upright. I’m looking forward to week four!
I almost can’t believe that I’ve kept up with exercising all summer and through now because I have had the toughest time trying to convince myself that I am capable of being in shape. Yet, here I am, working on week 2 of the couch to 5k plan. I realized last week that the route that I’ve been running on actually has a slight incline, which makes me even more excited about my progress. I’m really looking forward to observing my running abilities by the mid-point. I have yet to make any dietary changes though, and I sometimes wonder what effect my diet is having on how well I’ve been doing or could be doing.
I think I’m finally ready to change my relationship with food and exercise. I’ve been working on this change for a while now, but I think I’m ready to see it through. In the past, I was hooked on my weight and my appearance, but these days I’m thinking of something else. My thoughts are about my health now and where I see myself in the next 10 years. I realize that beauty may fade, but I want my health to be in tact. 10 years from now, I’ll still be young and I want to have my mobility. Beyond that, I want to have healthy lifestyle habits that I can carry even into my elderly years.
Since I don’t like working out, I knew I needed to find something comfortable and convenient to get myself back into the habit of working out often. I considered martial arts, getting a personal trainer, and all of the work out apps available, but none of them were that appealing. Plus, I feel like I tried them all already. So I decided to keep it as simple as possible and just start with walking. Before I knew it, the distance and speed was steadily increasing. Now I’m training to run a 5k and my long term goal is to increase my speed or distance.
I try not to think about my weight or my appearance at all and instead, I put all of my energy into my performance. As far as my diet goes, I’m still doing my research on how to improve it, but I’m stuck in that “I already eat healthy” mindset… and I really do believe that I have very healthy eating habits already. So we’ll see.
When I picture my ideal self, I picture myself almost exactly the way I look now. The only difference is that I’m about 10 lbs lighter. Strength is the major difference though. I want to be stronger and I want to have more stamina and endurance. HOWEVER, I’m having a few issues while trying to achieve my fitness goals..
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