A Lot Has Changed

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At the end of September, I posted that I was taking a short break from writing in order to focus on other things.

Other things included my upcoming graduation next month and my absolutely pointless courseload, studying Japanese, posting more content on my other platforms, improving my quality of life, acquiring a post-graduation job, and the list goes on. So much has changed and the past few months have been absolute hell. Looking back, I predicted this in my diary over the summer. I just knew that there was no way I’d get to glide my way through the finish line. So let me be transparent and catch you up. Continue reading “A Lot Has Changed”

Baby Steps to Better Health

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Today I weighed myself and I’ve gained literally all of the weight I lost 2 years ago. The first 15lbs I gained back were understandable. The first time that I’d lost weight, it was for vanity purposes and I was enduring a high amount of stress. As my life began to balance out, I went right back into the eating habits that led to the initial weight gain. If it weren’t for the fact that I continued living a very active lifestyle, I would’ve probably gained way more.  Continue reading “Baby Steps to Better Health”

Hindsight : A Look Back At My First 3 Posts (Part 2)

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This is a continuation of a series, analyzing my first 3 posts and seeing how I feel 2 years later. I am also doing this to (privately) analyze my growth as a writer. Continue reading “Hindsight : A Look Back At My First 3 Posts (Part 2)”

I’ve Gained Weight

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It sucks to say, but I’ve gained weight. It sucks to say because when I start to gain weight, I get afraid of losing control. I worry that I am losing control of my ability to control my eating, my fitness level, and my life.

It probably sounds really dramatic, I know. Seriously? This girl gains a few pounds and thinks her life is spiraling out of control? How immature!

I get it. Even I have to remind myself Continue reading “I’ve Gained Weight”

Final Running Update

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Well, this journey to improving my physical fitness has been so interesting. What started as a walk along a trail, during one of my most depressed moments of last year, has turned into a lifestyle change. I’ve decided that this will be my last blog about my running progress- at least for now.

Things have changed for me. Flowers have began to bloom on the branches that lost their leaves, and so much has happened since the leaves fell. Just like the trees, I lost leaves, some that I never expected to see go. The seasons changed, the weather brought fierce storms, and my Continue reading “Final Running Update”

Running update 9

Maybe I won’t be getting that shirt after all. Sigh. You know, I was so proud of myself– I am still very proud of myself for the fact that I didn’t allow the cold weather to stop me from running outside. Even when the temperatures dropped below 30 degrees, I made an effort to go outside and run. But my progress was slowed significantly and I felt a lot of pain. Finally, the temperatures recently dropped to crazy lows and my morning runs haven’t even been an option.

I’ve been feeling frustrated because I was doing so good, but I’m trying not to let frustration get the best of me. If I plan it right, I can rearrange my schedule so that I can spend some time using the treadmill at my university on the days that I intern- which were my run days.

We’ll see.

Running Update 8

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It’s been so long since I’ve written about running because it’s been so long since I’ve gone for a run! Until today. I’m finally back at it and I’m more motivated than ever to get my body stronger and able to run longer. Interestingly enough, what motivates me the most to work out are my depressing morning emotions. The stronger the negative feelings, the stronger my urge to run it off.

So I ran today, 3 miles in Continue reading “Running Update 8”