Screwing Up is OK

I never thought I’d see the day where I’d be praising myself for making mistakes, yet, here I am. It’s turned out to truly be a major key in me overcoming my issues with myself. In fact, I believe I’m much closer to overcoming some of my bad traits because I allow them to happen, acknowledge that they’re negatively impacting my life, and I plan to do better WITHOUT beating myself up and hosting a pity party afterwards. I wish I would’ve learned sooner that this was what I needed to do, but I didn’t want to. Running away from my issues just seemed so much more attractive.

Divest

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“Water only what waters you” is how the saying goes. “What you allow is what will continue” says another. It all boils down to the same thing, don’t give all of your energy to people and things that drain you. Well, there’s another half to that solution for one-way relationships and I learned that the other half is to divest.What I mean by that is, not only should you stop putting any more of yourself into the relationship, but you need to take as much as you can back AND invest it somewhere that will immediately start to replenish you. Continue reading →

Little Specks of Brown

My favorite thing to do in the morning is open my blinds and look at the trees outside of my window. One tree has a branch that hangs particularly close to my window, so I tend to look it it’s leaves first. Today, I noticed brownish, yellowish specks and a thought popped into my head… Time waits for no one.

The summer season is approaching a close and autumn is coming right behind it. No matter who was born or who died, no matter who was hurt or who found peace, no matter who found there way or who went deeper into the darkness… time didn’t stop. The leaves on this tree aren’t going to stop and wait for life to get better or worse to change their color and fall to the ground. The earth will keep rotating, its orbit continual, and time will continue to pass.

I, too, need not wait. Pain from my past, lost friendships, loneliness, or even my upcoming graduation are no excuse for me to pause my life, even for a second. I don’t need to wait for the “perfect” time to pursue my goals, get rid of toxic people and things, or to decide to be confident in myself. I have to get used to continuing on, just like to leaves on that tree. Those brown specks tell me that the tree is anticipating the change in season and I took it as a message from God, that I need to do the same. I’m about to enter a new season, whether I’m ready or not, and it’s time to prepare. Not when I feel like the time is right, but right now.

2018 isn’t over yet and it’s not too late to accomplish the things I’d hoped for by the end of the year. And honestly, before I saw the leaves this morning, I’d already come to the conclusion that I needed to forget the idea of this little “life pause” button that I can sit on when I’m not feeling like moving forward. But it’s a lot easier said than done? Don’t you agree? So, I always need a gentle reminder, like browning tree leaves or a stick note that I’ve placed on my bathroom mirror, or even a Pinterest dream-board.

The seasons are going to change soon. Are you ready?

How I got my glow back

I’ll probably end up writing several posts the revolve around this topic instead of one large one.

A year ago from today, I couldn’t have anticipated the things would unfold the way that they did. The last 12 months have been like nothing I’ve experienced before and I’ve learned so much. The academic year started off with Continue reading →