How’s the Love Life?

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Goodness, I’m really grateful to have finally gotten to a place in my life where my love life is going well.

I’m still really young, so it makes sense that I’m still getting the hang of things. Still, it just feels so good to be in a place in my life where I am no longer being stressed to the point of depression because of my dating life. In the past, I was always either unhappily with someone, unhappily searching for someone, or unhappily taking a break from dating altogether after being hurt. It was exhausting to experience and even more exhausting to constantly complain about to my friends. I felt angry all the time towards God for giving me the desire to have companionship and start a family, but not giving me a mate. At some point, I honestly forgot what it was that I was even looking for in a mate- I just wanted to have one. Then came the bouts of deciding that I was going to “give up” on dating all together, which turned out to be even more miserable then actually trying.

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Quitting My Search For The “Happy Ending”

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Perhaps I’m a pessimist for the way that I choose to look at things, but I’ve come to a point in my life where I’m no longer searching for my “happy ending”. This means that I’m letting go of the “what could’ve been” moments and people of my past. In general, I want to change the way that I think because I have come to accept that there’s only one point in life where the movie ends and the credits roll, and it’s not once I marry “the one”, start my “perfect” little family, or get that “amazing” (paying) job. Thoughts of the happy ending have been problematic and cause nothing but constant disappointment because I get so attached. Continue reading →

Revising and Revisiting My 12 Month Goals

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I’m not really into “new year’s resolutions” because I think (with few exceptions) it’s unrealistic to set a goal that I don’t plan to actually work on until after a specific date. However, since I began my journey of putting the broken pieces of my life back together, I’ve always kept 3, 6, and 12 month goals and the coming of the new year is always my favorite time to revisit and revise them. Unfortunately, I don’t have my physical list of goals with me since I’m not at home for this New Years, but I think I still remember some of them because I keep my list short. Regardless, I still wrote out my 12 month goals that I’d like to achieve in 2019 and I’m still working on my action plan for each one. My list, as always, is relatively short (it’s not in order): Continue reading →

Life Has Been A Little Strange

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When I started this blog, I talked about my big move. I knew it was coming. Yet, it still feels so strange that the time is almost here. I’ve got less than 12 months before the new chapter of my life begins and I can really feel it. The shift has forced me to really start to think about what I want. I mean, I’m always thinking about what I want, but now I actually feel closer to getting it. Continue reading →