Blogging with a purpose

I really enjoy my little blog and what it is becoming. Sometimes, I remind myself of this when I get anxious and start to question why I have a blog and whether or not to keep it. It’s so easy to quit doing something that you don’t feel secure in and I refuse to let that be the case with this blog.

At the same time, I think I can use those emotions to positively fuel my energy being directed into only what is it that I know I want to do right now. I’m not entirely sure that I want to be on YouTube, Facebook, or even Instagram, so I tend to go on and off of using those platforms, despite that I don’t even have bad intentions for them. I just don’t know how doing them makes me feel. When I made this blog, I literally sat down and wrote out a plan. I even made rules for myself. I haven’t been that clear with the others and I just don’t think I want to keep up with them. I think I want to just stick with blogging and that’s okay.

Just when it seemed like it couldn’t get any worse…

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I don’t think I’ve ever had this much trouble crossing off my to do list… but this finals week list has been so hard. And just when I think it can’t get any harder- IT DOES. Sigh. The good news is that, despite how hard it has been, I am still killing it. I might feel like I’m losing a little piece of sanity (lol!) but hey.. difficult has not equaled out to impossible.

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In better, happier, virtual news, this game has really got me thinking of what kind of place I want when I finally begin the journey of settling down. It’s such a happy thought, I’ve even been thinking of making a new vision board, piecing together my ideas for my first “home”.

 

Also, the trailer for the upcoming avengers movie looked great!

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Home Stretch!

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I. Have. One. Day. Left.

I’ve only got one day of classes left… The rest of my time this week will be spent studying intensely. I am just so ready for this semester to end. And after it does, the first thing I want to do is figure out how I will avoid burning out like this again..! I think that the first thing that I will do after my last final exam is lay down. I might spend the day in bed watching kung fu movies. The next thing I want to do is consider my options for getting a piece of workout equipment in my home. Like a treadmill or something.

As far as my virtual life goes:

  • The animals are total divas
  • I don’t understand why I can’t put my new TV on a tabletop
  • Giovanni has me set up for a 30k loan as if I didn’t just go into debt paying off a 10k loan
  • I absolutely love my little camper
  • I want some new clothes

Enjoying time off

 

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Well, my break has already come to an end. In fact, I’m pausing between work to post here. It’s been so, so difficult to make myself give up my energy for homework right now. I just don’t want to do it! Haha! It’s like, the end is so close right now that I just want to forget the rest and just let the semester end. I’ve only got 2 days left of class and I’ve got until the end of this week to submit my last handful of assignments. I think the only thing I care about right now is organic chemistry.

Besides that, I’ve downloaded the new animal crossing game. I absolutely love it and I love to use it as a virtual getaway and an excuse to get lost in imagining a life where I’m off the grid and live in a camper. I’m also going to use it as an excuse to post my favorite gameplay shots and my random thoughts here. 😝

I can see the light!

Oh! Oh! Oh!!!!!

I had a little thought pop into my head today. For once, I am on a new path. I’ve finally broken the cycle that I was in…!

Ok, I have to slow down. So, today I took my last difficult exam for the semester (besides finals) and I know I passed it! Now… I don’t know that I passed it with the grade I want, but ultimately, I know that I am going to pass this class. I’m going to pass all of my classes, and I’m actually expecting to remain on the Dean’s List. But… oh where was I going with this…?

Oh! So, I was walking to my car and I was thinking about how long I’ve been doing this college thing. And then it hit me.. I have 3 semesters left. So what if I’ve been doing this for so long. THIS is a point that I’ve never gotten to. I’ve never gotten down to the last 1.5 years of college. I’ve never been able to say, in 1 year I’m moving to Japan. But right now, I can say it. The overwhelming amount of joy that hit me from this made me take a look at myself and I realized that I’m finally moving forward.

This was an amazing realization for me and I’m really proud of myself. I feel like I can actually see the light. I’m so close to being where I want to be.