At this point, it’s safe to say that I’m winging it.
I’ve got 8 months left til my life changes and here I am winging it. Sugar coating things to anyone who asks, but knowing on the inside that I’m absolutely unsure on most days.
To be honest, I’m overwhelmed and I Continue reading →
After some recent sad events, I’ve been questioning myself a lot. It seems like just a couple of weeks ago I was riding through life on “cruise” mode, but as soon as things got a little hectic I jumped on the brakes and grabbed the wheel. It’s uncomfortable, if I’m being honest. The time that I spent cruising through life was the first time that I have felt free in a long time. I wasn’t concerned too much with anything. Not work or school, nothing. I just told myself it’ll all work out the way God intends and I solely focused on my part- which was to just keep doing my best. One forced kiss, verbal altercation, and academic situation later and I’m back where I started. Struggling to navigate through life on terms that I set out of self-preservation.
In the midst of finding my way back to peace, I decided to do some searching through the Continue reading →
For once, I took off from work and school to take care of myself and I’ve had to spend the entire day not letting myself feel bad for it. Now, I’ve got to be honest, I was actually forced to take this day off. I’m terribly sick and I’ve had pain throughout my entire body, plus I’m not getting any sleep. Ironically enough too, this all started within a day of me picking up a 3rd job. I couldn’t help but see it as a reminder from God that I am relying too hard on myself and not enough on Him.
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Well, exactly what I was worried about and stressing about happened. I ran out of money. My job wasn’t paying me enough, my bills piled up, and before I knew it- my bank account had been emptied.
This isn’t the first time I’ve been through this though, but I’m hoping it’s the last. The good thing about having been in this situation before is that I know how to survive it. Not to mention, I live on a cheap college-kid budget anyway, so I’m used to living with very little. Continue reading →
It sucks to say, but I’ve gained weight. It sucks to say because when I start to gain weight, I get afraid of losing control. I worry that I am losing control of my ability to control my eating, my fitness level, and my life.
It probably sounds really dramatic, I know. Seriously? This girl gains a few pounds and thinks her life is spiraling out of control? How immature!
I get it. Even I have to remind myself Continue reading →
5 years ago, when I made the decision to seek spiritual healing, I had no idea of what all I’d be bringing into my life. I did not realize how much “easier” I had it when I lived without seeking to understand life and my purpose on a deeper level. Since then, I’ve Continue reading →
Well, this journey to improving my physical fitness has been so interesting. What started as a walk along a trail, during one of my most depressed moments of last year, has turned into a lifestyle change. I’ve decided that this will be my last blog about my running progress- at least for now.
Things have changed for me. Flowers have began to bloom on the branches that lost their leaves, and so much has happened since the leaves fell. Just like the trees, I lost leaves, some that I never expected to see go. The seasons changed, the weather brought fierce storms, and my Continue reading →