Life Update | 10 Months til the “Big Day”

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My favorite thing right now is watching women’s 30th birthday’s come. I’ve watched birthday parties on YouTube and I’ve celebrated with glee for my lucky friends who’ve finally reached the big 3-0. This might seem like it has nothing to do with the fact that I’m moving in 10 months, but it does!

I have grown so much in the past 5 years, the past, year, even in the past month. I have entered a cocoon and I can feel that I’m no longer a caterpillar anymore. Seeing how much I grow and change every week makes me look forward to turning 30 and who 30 year old me will be. I’m so curious to know what 4 more years of growth will have transformed me into. Continue reading →

Stressed and Ungrateful

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Why is it always so tempting to start off the new year in a sprint?

I mean, in some ways I started my new year off like any other day/week/month, but I also identified two areas of my life that I’d like to see improvement in and immediately decided to start working on them… And I feel like I immediately got stuck in quicksand.

Let me just get right to it; I am far too easily stressed- sick and tired of being sick and tired, and know that if I practiced gratitude more often, it would offer me a remedy for the stress in my life. How hard is it to be grateful? Seriously? In fact, I thought I was already a pretty grateful lady… til Continue reading →

How’s the Love Life?

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Goodness, I’m really grateful to have finally gotten to a place in my life where my love life is going well.

I’m still really young, so it makes sense that I’m still getting the hang of things. Still, it just feels so good to be in a place in my life where I am no longer being stressed to the point of depression because of my dating life. In the past, I was always either unhappily with someone, unhappily searching for someone, or unhappily taking a break from dating altogether after being hurt. It was exhausting to experience and even more exhausting to constantly complain about to my friends. I felt angry all the time towards God for giving me the desire to have companionship and start a family, but not giving me a mate. At some point, I honestly forgot what it was that I was even looking for in a mate- I just wanted to have one. Then came the bouts of deciding that I was going to “give up” on dating all together, which turned out to be even more miserable then actually trying.

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Hair Update

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My hair has been doing so well since my last post about it. If I recall, in my last hair post, I was contemplating a relaxer or maybe I had relaxed and was writing about the maintenance. Either way, my hair is longer and thicker than it’s ever been in my life. I pulled a strand down my back and it was resting on my bra-strap. Now, I just want to get all of my hair to that length. For now, I’m thinking waist length is as long as I’ll allow my hair to grow because anything longer will be too much to maintain.

My regimen is Continue reading →

Quitting My Search For The “Happy Ending”

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Perhaps I’m a pessimist for the way that I choose to look at things, but I’ve come to a point in my life where I’m no longer searching for my “happy ending”. This means that I’m letting go of the “what could’ve been” moments and people of my past. In general, I want to change the way that I think because I have come to accept that there’s only one point in life where the movie ends and the credits roll, and it’s not once I marry “the one”, start my “perfect” little family, or get that “amazing” (paying) job. Thoughts of the happy ending have been problematic and cause nothing but constant disappointment because I get so attached. Continue reading →

Running Update 8

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It’s been so long since I’ve written about running because it’s been so long since I’ve gone for a run! Until today. I’m finally back at it and I’m more motivated than ever to get my body stronger and able to run longer. Interestingly enough, what motivates me the most to work out are my depressing morning emotions. The stronger the negative feelings, the stronger my urge to run it off.

So I ran today, 3 miles in Continue reading →