After some recent sad events, I’ve been questioning myself a lot. It seems like just a couple of weeks ago I was riding through life on “cruise” mode, but as soon as things got a little hectic I jumped on the brakes and grabbed the wheel. It’s uncomfortable, if I’m being honest. The time that I spent cruising through life was the first time that I have felt free in a long time. I wasn’t concerned too much with anything. Not work or school, nothing. I just told myself it’ll all work out the way God intends and I solely focused on my part- which was to just keep doing my best. One forced kiss, verbal altercation, and academic situation later and I’m back where I started. Struggling to navigate through life on terms that I set out of self-preservation.
In the midst of finding my way back to peace, I decided to do some searching through the Continue reading →
There is a familiar voice in my head that makes me miserable when I should be happy. That’s what I’d define as “anxiety”. Recently, I’ve taken the approach (as often as I can) to roll up my sleeves and uppercut the shit out of it.
Okay, maybe I’m making myself sound tougher than I actually am. Continue reading →
Gosh, this will not be one of my happier posts. So there’s your warning lol.
Nobody likes to make choices that will cost them a big burden, right? For some, this could be a choice that leads to great financial strain or the loss of a physical item. That’s not what I’m going to be writing about here though. I’m talking about the decisions that cost you the people and relationships that might mean the most to you right now. Continue reading →
I’ve been slowly but surely making preparations for my upcoming graduation. Still, I sometimes can’t believe that it’s really about to happen for me. Despite my excitement, I’ve found my recent run-in’s with anxiety (and accepting that I actually suffer from it), along with minor set-backs/disappointments, to actually cause me to forget that at the end of this year- which is already passing quickly, I’ll have accomplished 2 of my life’s goals. I’ll be in a much better situation to finally start settling down. These thoughts should stimulate me and excite me, but instead they’re like ghosts to me. I can sometimes see them but I can’t touch them, so I sometimes doubt their existence. Continue reading →
The leaves have started to fall Continue reading →
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“Water only what waters you” is how the saying goes. “What you allow is what will continue” says another. It all boils down to the same thing, don’t give all of your energy to people and things that drain you. Well, there’s another half to that solution for one-way relationships and I learned that the other half is to divest.What I mean by that is, not only should you stop putting any more of yourself into the relationship, but you need to take as much as you can back AND invest it somewhere that will immediately start to replenish you. Continue reading →
I’ll probably end up writing several posts the revolve around this topic instead of one large one.
A year ago from today, I couldn’t have anticipated the things would unfold the way that they did. The last 12 months have been like nothing I’ve experienced before and I’ve learned so much. The academic year started off with Continue reading →