I haven’t made one of these in a while and I’ve got a few reasons why not:
- I struggle to cook here at my dad’s place because I can’t meal prep here (no fridge space)
- I’ve been looking for alternative solutions to weight loss (and found one) because I hated tracking my foods
So here’s the update: Between stress, prayer (to take my appetite away), “skinny tea”, beach body, and wearing a waist trainer every other day, I just don’t eat much anymore. I probably eat once or twice in a day and only 1 of those meals will be “large”. I mostly drink smoothies (superfood powder mixed with a bolthouse premade smoothie), coffee, and water during the day. When I become the least bit anxious, I completely lose my appetite and I don’t eat anything except fruit sometimes.
Now, I know this sounds unhealthy. Okay, it is unhealthy. However, it’s working in my favor. I needed to hit the reset button on my appetite so I could get a grip on my dietary choices. It’s so much easier now for me to chose to eat nutritious foods because I’m not constantly starving and willing to eat anything. And when I do eat unhealthy, I don’t each much of it. So far, I’ve lost 7lbs and I know I’ll lose more if I keep this up. When I do eat, it’s usually at least 1/2 vegetables.
So that’s that. Hopefully, as I get myself together, I’ll get a better grip on this. But for now, it’s working very well for me.
You know, sometimes I feel like I’m doing so great. My optimism peaks at an all-time high. I eat well, go to the gym regularly, pray regularly, and I (feel like I) have a grip on my life.
Other days, I just sink into the depths of my lows. I could be eating better, working out more, praying more, waking up earlier, achieving more at work. Do I have a grip on my life? Or am I standing on the accelerator petal- headed straight for a cement wall? Continue reading “The 90-day Mark”
I love to watch the Avengers movies. Although, believe it or not, I’m not a fan of heros. The villains are always cooler, ruthless, always willing to do whatever it takes to accomplish their mission. They aren’t usually controlled by their emotions. They usually only “lose” because it’s the only way people would watch the movie. That’s why Infinity War is one of my favorites. But I’m not writing this to talk about my obsession with Megatron and Ronin the Accuser.
Continue reading “Sensing My Purpose”
Well, August is sprinting to the half-way mark and I’m still at the start-line tying my shoe laces. This month began with many epiphanies and hearing Continue reading “Fast-forward | 4 Month Update”
“So what is it that you want to do?” That’s the biggest question of 2019 for graduating seniors, isn’t it?
I started this blog 2 years ago, almost 3? My intention was to write my thoughts, plans, and activities leading up to Continue reading “I Finally Admitted the Truth”
There’s no manual given to you when you become a parent. There’s no customized guide to tell you what’s best for your child. There’s also no rewind button after you’ve had a major role in an event that traumatized your child. There’s no law that says they have to forgive you, or bring their children (if they have any) around you. Just like there’s no law that says every parent must have the perfect parenting technique. It’s tricky, isn’t it? Being completely responsible for another human’s physical and emotional needs. I don’t have any children, but I am the child to parents whom I once held a great deal of resentment towards.
Continue reading “What To Do When Your Kids Resent You”
It’s really easy for me to tell someone that I “couldn’t care less” about whatever their problem is- especially when they’ve got a problem with me. It’s even easier for me to brag to other people about how resilient and “thick-skinned” I am. Yet, my anxiety at its core has always been the exact opposite. I’m like a fruit or vegetable with a hard outer shell, but the inside is as mushy as melted ice-cream. Anxiety makes me vulnerable. It whispers into my ear that something is wrong and someone is out to get me. However, in my recent quest to overcome anxiety once and for all, I’ve learned a weapon that can be used against it- the art of not giving a single damn. Continue reading “The Art of Not Giving A Damn”
Well, the past few weeks… No, the past few months have been incredibly strange. I’ve been unable to use any other words to describe this journey to self discovery because it’s incredibly rare that I reach this point. Continue reading “Impostor Syndrome”
Tomorrow marks the end of my new job. It’s crazy to think that nearly 2 months ago I said I was unhappy about starting this job, but now I’m sad just imagining it ending. I love my job. I’ve gained so much from it. Wisdom, closure for past trauma, friendship, and perhaps more. I can’t believe that it went by so quickly and not a single day was “bad”. I just can’t believe it’s almost over. I can remember the day I walked in, confused and Continue reading “The Worst Case Became the Best”
Today I had the kind of encounter I treasure the most. It was with an older woman working at my job for the day. She was really enthusiastic about meeting me, which threw me off because I’d never met her before. “I’ve heard so many great things about you and I really wanted to see you in action”, she told me. I wondered who she’d heard these “great things” about me from because I recently learned that my children have been going around school Continue reading “I Can Have Both”