So, I’ve realized I definitely can’t do these weekly. I think once or twice a week will be my routine for the food diary posts.
Anyway, my food-life has been very interesting lately! Let me start with this past Sunday. I weighed myself and was down 3 pounds! I was honestly shocked because I had a couple of days where I slipped up and went over on the calories. It’s very likely that the reason I still lost weight was that I exercised and burned approximately 270kcal Monday through Friday. I think I said this in a previous post, but I do not factor exercise into my calorie consumption right now for a few reasons. One, is that I don’t believe I exercise enough to eat more calories. Another reason is that I want to focus on studying my eating habits and learning what 1200 to 1500 calories a day looks like. Continue reading “Food Diary #4 |Fitness & Nutrition”
Alrighty. So today I didn’t do that well, BUT I do have good things to say about how today went.
- Taking pictures of my food and logging it has made me more aware of when I eat, even after I’ve eaten. In the past, I didn’t realize how much I was mindlessly eating. Not only was I not noticing what I was eating or how much, but I would almost “forget” that I ate anything within a couple of hours when I’d be snacking again. Kinda like that time Patrick from Spongebob got upset because he didn’t remember eating his chocolate bar.
- Protein really does make me feel full longer. I always thought that was some nutritionist mumbo-jumbo, but it’s true! It’s been a lot easier not to snack when I’m getting a good amount of protein with each meal! That being said- I do need to cut my protein consumption just a bit because it’s adding excess to my calorie count.
Continue reading “Food Diary #3 | Fitness & Nutrition”
I think I did a pretty good job today. Better than yesterday. After I wrote that post, I got some pretty bad news and I coped by binging on 2 pop-tarts and a handful of Sun Puffs. I’m grateful that that’s ALL I ate. I did force myself to sorrowfully log it into MyFitnessPal too… so hopefully there will be no more of that!
Today I didn’t exercise at all. Partially because of the weather and partially because I was honestly just depressed. I also skipped breakfast for the same reason.
My first meal was around 2PM. Continue reading “Food Diary #2 |Fitness & Nutrition”
I really hate to admit it, but I snack way too often. It’s like a hobby to me and it soothes literally any emotion. Pissed off? Oreo cookies. Depressed? Hershey’s Pie. Feeling in love (with Andy Samberg’s character on B99)? Toaster strudel. I mean, I can tell you a snack for any occasion.
Simultaneously, I’ve been searching high and low for the cause of my recent weight gain. I went from 180 to 215+ in a matter of months and watching My 600lb life on Hulu is making me panic, which makes me want more snacks! Continue reading “Cutting Out A Bad Habit | Fitness & Nutrition”
Between the pandemic and my own anxiety, I’ve been in my feelings. Even though I’m already a hermit, I feel more alone now than ever before. It has forced me to think about my life and who I’ve become. About 3 years ago, I realized that the gratification I felt after working hard on things like projects and assignments was the feeling I was missing in my personal relationships with people. It’s likely that I was expecting constant gratification from others in my life because I never felt like I could get it from my mom. The feeling I’d have after busting my chops on a project, seeing my work, and even having my work recognized by others- it made me feel whole. So that what I focused all of my energy on.
As time went on, relationships with people were placed on the back-burner. People disappointed me. They could never be exactly who I (felt I) needed, when I needed them to be. I could never be who they needed me to be. I couldn’t trust Continue reading “Confessions of A Workaholic”
At the end of September, I posted that I was taking a short break from writing in order to focus on other things.
Other things included my upcoming graduation next month and my absolutely pointless courseload, studying Japanese, posting more content on my other platforms, improving my quality of life, acquiring a post-graduation job, and the list goes on. So much has changed and the past few months have been absolute hell. Looking back, I predicted this in my diary over the summer. I just knew that there was no way I’d get to glide my way through the finish line. So let me be transparent and catch you up. Continue reading “A Lot Has Changed”
There are a few things that I’ve been trying to do for years now. My longest-standing unaccomplished goal is to move to Japan. My shortest, but still 3-year-strong, has been to lose a specific amount of weight. In between sits goals like growing my hair to the middle of my back, passing the JLPT N2, getting married, and starting a successful business. It’s so easy for me to say that I’ve tried “everything”, but haven’t had any success. Honestly, it seriously feels like I have. But the fact is- I haven’t tried “everything” yet.
Last year, I started listening to Continue reading “When You’ve Tried “Everything””
Today I weighed myself and I’ve gained literally all of the weight I lost 2 years ago. The first 15lbs I gained back were understandable. The first time that I’d lost weight, it was for vanity purposes and I was enduring a high amount of stress. As my life began to balance out, I went right back into the eating habits that led to the initial weight gain. If it weren’t for the fact that I continued living a very active lifestyle, I would’ve probably gained way more. Continue reading “Baby Steps to Better Health”
I love to watch the Avengers movies. Although, believe it or not, I’m not a fan of heros. The villains are always cooler, ruthless, always willing to do whatever it takes to accomplish their mission. They aren’t usually controlled by their emotions. They usually only “lose” because it’s the only way people would watch the movie. That’s why Infinity War is one of my favorites. But I’m not writing this to talk about my obsession with Megatron and Ronin the Accuser.
Continue reading “Sensing My Purpose”