“So what is it that you want to do?” That’s the biggest question of 2019 for graduating seniors, isn’t it?
I started this blog 2 years ago, almost 3? My intention was to write my thoughts, plans, and activities leading up to Continue reading “I Finally Admitted the Truth”
Well, the past few weeks… No, the past few months have been incredibly strange. I’ve been unable to use any other words to describe this journey to self discovery because it’s incredibly rare that I reach this point. Continue reading “Impostor Syndrome”
I had an interesting, but not unusual, conversation with some of my co-workers recently. At this point in my life, discussions about having babies and getting married come up a lot. I’m approaching the “big 3-0” and it’s got people wondering about my womb, especially since I’m single.
The conversation started off about how unappealing child-birth is. A co-worker around my age brought it up to me and I couldn’t help but agree. I mean, between the pain of the birth, the pain of Continue reading “Why I Want to Adopt”
The final question that this article asks was my second favorite question because it forced me to really dig deep into my feelings.
5. If money were no object, how would you live your life differently?
Continue reading “5 Good Questions | Part 5”
My favorite thing to do in the morning is open my blinds and look at the trees outside of my window. One tree has a branch that hangs particularly close to my window, so I tend to look it it’s leaves first. Today, I noticed brownish, yellowish specks and a thought popped into my head… Time waits for no one.
The summer season is approaching a close and autumn is coming right behind it. No matter who was born or who died, no matter who was hurt or who found peace, no matter who found there way or who went deeper into the darkness… time didn’t stop. The leaves on this tree aren’t going to stop and wait for life to get better or worse to change their color and fall to the ground. The earth will keep rotating, its orbit continual, and time will continue to pass.
I, too, need not wait. Pain from my past, lost friendships, loneliness, or even my upcoming graduation are no excuse for me to pause my life, even for a second. I don’t need to wait for the “perfect” time to pursue my goals, get rid of toxic people and things, or to decide to be confident in myself. I have to get used to continuing on, just like to leaves on that tree. Those brown specks tell me that the tree is anticipating the change in season and I took it as a message from God, that I need to do the same. I’m about to enter a new season, whether I’m ready or not, and it’s time to prepare. Not when I feel like the time is right, but right now.
2018 isn’t over yet and it’s not too late to accomplish the things I’d hoped for by the end of the year. And honestly, before I saw the leaves this morning, I’d already come to the conclusion that I needed to forget the idea of this little “life pause” button that I can sit on when I’m not feeling like moving forward. But it’s a lot easier said than done? Don’t you agree? So, I always need a gentle reminder, like browning tree leaves or a stick note that I’ve placed on my bathroom mirror, or even a Pinterest dream-board.
The seasons are going to change soon. Are you ready?
Well, my 19 hour semester has officially begun. Its slow start is how I know that around midterms it’s going to be a full blown storm. Continue reading “The TRUE Purpose of College”
Finding my passion seems to be a full time job these day, except I’m not being paid to do so.. And it sounds like once I find this passion, I’ll need to practice it frequently so that I’m actually good at doing it (unless it’s something I already do). Maybe this is just the laziness in me, but that sounds like a lot of work! (Definitely laziness) And one thing I don’t like to do is work for free.. Continue reading “Finding my passion and working for “free””
This isn’t my first time moving. In fact, the last time I moved, I planned it for about a year. But sometimes I wonder if it’s strange or even wrong that I am planning a move that is about 2 years away. Do people do that?
Continue reading “Could I be planning “too soon””