I had an interesting, but not unusual, conversation with some of my co-workers recently. At this point in my life, discussions about having babies and getting married come up a lot. I’m approaching the “big 3-0” and it’s got people wondering about my womb, especially since I’m single.
The conversation started off about how unappealing child-birth is. A co-worker around my age brought it up to me and I couldn’t help but agree. I mean, between the pain of the birth, the pain of Continue reading “Why I Want to Adopt”
This is my third week at my new job and I’ve never had so many people tell me how perfect I fit in. In fact, I have denied it every time someone has suggested that I might have found my calling. From my friends, to my co-workers, and even my own parents- everyone seems to feel that I am meant to be a elementary school teacher. I truly didn’t want to believe it. I just didn’t. Honestly, I think it’s because I viewed teaching as one of those “last resort”, dead-end occupations. Continue reading “I Thought I Knew What Made Me Happy | Life Update”
So, you’re not where you (think you) want to be in life right now. You’ve got a vision of the ideal future, its bells and whistles, and you can just image how much better things would be if you could get there. I get it. Trust me, I do. I’ve dreamt of packing my things and starting my life in Japan since I was a little girl. It was easy to look at things and say “well, at least when I move away I won’t have to deal with that anymore”. Funny enough, the things that I was trying to run away from just happened to constantly reoccur in my life. I hadn’t considered that maybe I was the issue and that it was time for a change.
About a year or so ago, I discussed this with Continue reading “How To Enjoy Your Current Circumstances”
This is a continuation of a series, analyzing my first 3 posts and seeing how I feel 2 years later. I am also doing this to (privately) analyze my growth as a writer. Continue reading “Hindsight : A Look Back At My First 3 Posts (Part 2)”
Today is Resurrection Day and I am so blessed to be feeling well. A few weeks ago, I was in a Tiny Buddha forum and someone mentioned the INFJ personality. I have heard of people using personality acronyms, especially in the online dating community, but I never felt the need to look into it. Similarly to astrology and horoscopes, I just don’t like to rely on these kinds of things to tell me who I am. However, when Continue reading “I’m An INFJ… Now What?”
In May of last year, I was in a terrible mental space. It was the second time in my life where I’d reached the proverbial “rock bottom” emotionally. I was forced to face all of the feelings that I had bottled-in for over 5 years. While I won’t go into much of the specifics, I will say that it was the result of not being honest with myself. I would tell myself that I was fine when I wasn’t, say I was taking a “break” from dating when I really wanted to be in a relationship, etc… I wasn’t taking the best care of myself and I certainly wasn’t putting myself first. I think the only thing I cared about was making money. I was struggling mentally and it had started to affect my job, so I quit and decided that I would take on the financial burden of going two months without pay- the beginning of the financial crisis I’m in now, to figure myself out. Continue reading “How I “Upgraded” My Look (Long Post)”
“It’ll be easy” they said… “It’s easy money, just sit there and watch the kids“… the lies!
In my recent quest to keep my bills paid and food in my stomach, I’ve picked up what is essentially my third job now- on top of my 17 credit hour course load. My understanding was that this job would hardly be a job because I’ll “just” be a sub, so there’s virtually no responsibility and no strings attached. Not to mention, I get to “make my own schedule”. What’s there not to love? HA..! I think I’ll write another post tomorrow about what it’s been like so far for me as a sub, but in this post I want to talk about some valuable lessons I’ve been learning. Continue reading “Thing’s I’ve Learned From Becoming A Substitute Teacher”