At the end of September, I posted that I was taking a short break from writing in order to focus on other things.
Other things included my upcoming graduation next month and my absolutely pointless courseload, studying Japanese, posting more content on my other platforms, improving my quality of life, acquiring a post-graduation job, and the list goes on. So much has changed and the past few months have been absolute hell. Looking back, I predicted this in my diary over the summer. I just knew that there was no way I’d get to glide my way through the finish line. So let me be transparent and catch you up. Continue reading “A Lot Has Changed”
There are a few things that I’ve been trying to do for years now. My longest-standing unaccomplished goal is to move to Japan. My shortest, but still 3-year-strong, has been to lose a specific amount of weight. In between sits goals like growing my hair to the middle of my back, passing the JLPT N2, getting married, and starting a successful business. It’s so easy for me to say that I’ve tried “everything”, but haven’t had any success. Honestly, it seriously feels like I have. But the fact is- I haven’t tried “everything” yet.
Last year, I started listening to Continue reading “When You’ve Tried “Everything””
You know, sometimes I feel like I’m doing so great. My optimism peaks at an all-time high. I eat well, go to the gym regularly, pray regularly, and I (feel like I) have a grip on my life.
Other days, I just sink into the depths of my lows. I could be eating better, working out more, praying more, waking up earlier, achieving more at work. Do I have a grip on my life? Or am I standing on the accelerator petal- headed straight for a cement wall? Continue reading “The 90-day Mark”
As a very introverted, anti-social woman, I have no problem admitting that I don’t enjoy social media. My reasoning is what you’d expect from someone like me. I am easily exhausted by human interaction, anxious, and sometimes prone to irritation. Social media can be a great tool for connecting or re-connecting with people, building a business, and even befriending new people with similar interests. However, social media can also be a war zone. People spew hate-speech, publicly (virtually) crucify people for their mistakes, and cyber-bully the innocent. Today, it is my personal preference to Continue reading “Social Media And Mental Health”
I’ve got 5 months left. Wow.
Summer has been going strong since it started. I went from unemployed with Continue reading “I’m Half-way There | 5 Month Update”
It’s really easy for me to tell someone that I “couldn’t care less” about whatever their problem is- especially when they’ve got a problem with me. It’s even easier for me to brag to other people about how resilient and “thick-skinned” I am. Yet, my anxiety at its core has always been the exact opposite. I’m like a fruit or vegetable with a hard outer shell, but the inside is as mushy as melted ice-cream. Anxiety makes me vulnerable. It whispers into my ear that something is wrong and someone is out to get me. However, in my recent quest to overcome anxiety once and for all, I’ve learned a weapon that can be used against it- the art of not giving a single damn. Continue reading “The Art of Not Giving A Damn”
This is my third week at my new job and I’ve never had so many people tell me how perfect I fit in. In fact, I have denied it every time someone has suggested that I might have found my calling. From my friends, to my co-workers, and even my own parents- everyone seems to feel that I am meant to be a elementary school teacher. I truly didn’t want to believe it. I just didn’t. Honestly, I think it’s because I viewed teaching as one of those “last resort”, dead-end occupations. Continue reading “I Thought I Knew What Made Me Happy | Life Update”
“It’ll be easy” they said… “It’s easy money, just sit there and watch the kids“… the lies!
In my recent quest to keep my bills paid and food in my stomach, I’ve picked up what is essentially my third job now- on top of my 17 credit hour course load. My understanding was that this job would hardly be a job because I’ll “just” be a sub, so there’s virtually no responsibility and no strings attached. Not to mention, I get to “make my own schedule”. What’s there not to love? HA..! I think I’ll write another post tomorrow about what it’s been like so far for me as a sub, but in this post I want to talk about some valuable lessons I’ve been learning. Continue reading “Thing’s I’ve Learned From Becoming A Substitute Teacher”