At the end of September, I posted that I was taking a short break from writing in order to focus on other things.
Other things included my upcoming graduation next month and my absolutely pointless courseload, studying Japanese, posting more content on my other platforms, improving my quality of life, acquiring a post-graduation job, and the list goes on. So much has changed and the past few months have been absolute hell. Looking back, I predicted this in my diary over the summer. I just knew that there was no way I’d get to glide my way through the finish line. So let me be transparent and catch you up. Continue reading “A Lot Has Changed”
There are a few things that I’ve been trying to do for years now. My longest-standing unaccomplished goal is to move to Japan. My shortest, but still 3-year-strong, has been to lose a specific amount of weight. In between sits goals like growing my hair to the middle of my back, passing the JLPT N2, getting married, and starting a successful business. It’s so easy for me to say that I’ve tried “everything”, but haven’t had any success. Honestly, it seriously feels like I have. But the fact is- I haven’t tried “everything” yet.
Last year, I started listening to Continue reading “When You’ve Tried “Everything””
As a very introverted, anti-social woman, I have no problem admitting that I don’t enjoy social media. My reasoning is what you’d expect from someone like me. I am easily exhausted by human interaction, anxious, and sometimes prone to irritation. Social media can be a great tool for connecting or re-connecting with people, building a business, and even befriending new people with similar interests. However, social media can also be a war zone. People spew hate-speech, publicly (virtually) crucify people for their mistakes, and cyber-bully the innocent. Today, it is my personal preference to Continue reading “Social Media And Mental Health”
It’s really easy for me to tell someone that I “couldn’t care less” about whatever their problem is- especially when they’ve got a problem with me. It’s even easier for me to brag to other people about how resilient and “thick-skinned” I am. Yet, my anxiety at its core has always been the exact opposite. I’m like a fruit or vegetable with a hard outer shell, but the inside is as mushy as melted ice-cream. Anxiety makes me vulnerable. It whispers into my ear that something is wrong and someone is out to get me. However, in my recent quest to overcome anxiety once and for all, I’ve learned a weapon that can be used against it- the art of not giving a single damn. Continue reading “The Art of Not Giving A Damn”
Tomorrow marks the end of my new job. It’s crazy to think that nearly 2 months ago I said I was unhappy about starting this job, but now I’m sad just imagining it ending. I love my job. I’ve gained so much from it. Wisdom, closure for past trauma, friendship, and perhaps more. I can’t believe that it went by so quickly and not a single day was “bad”. I just can’t believe it’s almost over. I can remember the day I walked in, confused and Continue reading “The Worst Case Became the Best”
This is my third week at my new job and I’ve never had so many people tell me how perfect I fit in. In fact, I have denied it every time someone has suggested that I might have found my calling. From my friends, to my co-workers, and even my own parents- everyone seems to feel that I am meant to be a elementary school teacher. I truly didn’t want to believe it. I just didn’t. Honestly, I think it’s because I viewed teaching as one of those “last resort”, dead-end occupations. Continue reading “I Thought I Knew What Made Me Happy | Life Update”
I’m officially 7 months out from “the big day” and I’m in need of a serious attitude adjustment. Life has been fairly good to me, so it makes no sense for me to be unhappy about anything. My classes are coming to an end and I only have a couple of actual final exams. The rest are just paper and projects that I’ll submit or present on the exam day. This was also my last semester of “real classes” as I like to call them, so from this point forward, it shouldn’t be too difficult to get by. I’ve had no social disputes with anyone and my love life is still in-tact (I’m not seeing anyone at the moment but I’m not unhappy about my love life either). So then, why am I feeling less than enthused? Continue reading “7 Month Update & Why I Don’t Believe in 9 to 5’s”